Why does it have to be like this ? Jesus, tell me why.

11th February `08
Reminisced every moments of that, But ..
'

For a moment,
I thought that you would be better off without me.
But, I'm wrong, I'm sorry J.
Don't worry, I will be here for you, I still will be here.
Trust me,
I will be here & not leaving you alone.
I'll be, tt someone whom you always know who to turn to
& whom you know tt will always be here for you,
always.

I've a got deep cut
somewhere, somehow,
deep down.
I miss J.

14th February `08 or 14th February `08