What can I say ?

I've a ten week break starting from today. Somehow, I ain't even ecstatic about this, totally not.
In a month time, I'm going to be officially Eighteen. I'm surely not one of those immature people & those three words I've said, I meant it deep down. Everything seems to be so lost to me. Just before, I wanted this February to be the best of the year. Somehow, it seems to be ruined.

Feb 11, Feb 14, Feb 19, Feb 22.

Sneaking out in the middle of the night, 2 - 3am
Skating around aimlessly w/o any destination,
Reminiscing about you.
I don't want you to leave, neither will I leave you.

-Far Away,
By Nickelback.