I still love you so, <3s

Everything, every moment from now, just seems to be so empty.
Although time still moves on, but things just seems to be so lost & empty to me.
Time past incredibly fast when you're with me. But now, time seems to have slowed down & it's at a pace which so damn slow that is so torturing.
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I just need you to know that, I ain't happy without you around. I hate the way we're talking & texting each other too. I didn't wanted this & I know you wouldn't want this too.
Every time i replied you, i would spent ages to type, delete everything & retype again & again then send it to you. I didn't want to say anything hurting, so I'm just trying to act normally in front of you & everyone else.
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But deep down inside, who knows. Who knows,
How much I am missing you, How much I am thinking of you.
Every single thing around are reminding me of you. Every single bit.
My jacket, necklace, notebook, phone, photos, guitar, your fav. drink & even my shoes! (you know why)
I asked you if both of us joking together the way we did yesterday would be better. Of course not!
Thanks, for putting on a brave font to cheer me up yesterday. I hate to let you to do this & I also tried to cheer up because I didn't want you to tears anymore. Looking at you tearing & trying to put on a brave font, my heart sank. I felt so damn bad & terrible inside me.
Know what, i really want you back in my life. But, i guess i just have to wait.
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I apologise for trying to force myself & act normally infront of you, which I didn't want to.
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Baby, don't ever be afraid that i wouldn't be here anymore after ten months.
Now, I tell you that I'll be here for you, all the time!